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Aysha T's avatar

I, too, have struggled with a sense of belonging, a struggle that dates back to my early childhood and continues throughout my adulthood. I'm also a do-er and so have been more of a starter than a joiner (though as I write this, I wonder how much of that is a protective mechanism).

I recently bought my first apartment, and while my initial instinct was to host a welcome breakfast for the floor (inspired by your building's rooftop parties), I ended up deciding to wait and observe what networks, norms, and infrastructure already existed. I still said hi to everyone I met, but this approach took more patience and trust. It's only been a few months, but it's been a wonderful experience allowing myself to be received by this building community. I also have a similar experience with a weekly small workout group class where I am the youngest by a decade, the only person of colour and the least fit, but I have allowed myself to feel welcomed by the group instead of deciding that I don't belong. In both cases, whenever I feel a moment of belonging, I try to imprint the feeling in my body in hopes to create new patterns.

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Eliza's avatar

I've gradually gotten involved in my union at work over the last couple of years and what you wrote about Casper captures the reticence I encounter when I go talk to my coworkers about potentially joining our union as a member. As one of my fellow organizers loves to say, our union is not a fee for service organization, but that's the attitude many of our colleagues have. It's just all of us making stuff happen in whatever way makes the most sense at the time, and we're more powerful when we work together, so there's a big incentive to work together. I've taken that sentiment to heart to make stuff happen in our union in whatever way makes sense to me (I'm currently creating a resources page on our website so people have guides for how to check that their pay stub is correct, etc.). That's the best way I've been able to combine my desire to join something that matters to me and also channel my starter energy

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